I cannot stray from the desire
To love with the intensity of a fire
Therefore I am the one to inevitably suffer
From the burns of my own manifested heat
Month: March 2019
Blame
Dusk turns to dawn
It was you all along
Hiding secrets alone in the dark
Will you sanction my pain?
Or continue this game
Where you pick and you pull me apart
Who Are You?
Who are you
at the end of the day?
Open and free
with your mask stripped away
Because all I received
was judgement and shame
In the end all I know is
your name and your pain
Defense Mechanisms
You often raise your voice
As if you are raising a gun
But while some holster a weapon
With the intent to kill
I see your loaded words
As merely an emotional shield
Used frequently and deliberately
With the intent to protect your ego
Protect Me
as I curse at the sky
cry beneath the clouds
and melt in the sun
he reminds me that I am doing so
within a world he will always protect
sometimes I wonderÂ
if feeling empty
is beneficial
because nothing
makes me feel more at peace
than your ability
to make me feel whole again
Did you know I was trapped?
I kept trying to break the mold
Fly away to freedom
But it turns out I was inevitably
Flying back to a cageÂ
Every time
I coddled your dreams
In hopes of growth
Only to find out
I was really feedingÂ
My own nightmares
Will you sing me a lullaby?
For I haven’t slept in days
Anything to pass the time
Before I go insane
It’s important to remind yourself
That in the absence of someone else’s presence
You are never to question or demeanÂ
The worth of your own existence
