You promised you could handle 
All those broken bits of me
Despite the fact, I knew damn well
I had already made you bleed
So, I can’t begin to blame you 
For failing to bring me peace
When you fought at first, to make it work
But would never be what I need
It was just hitting noon
When I thought about you 
Under waves of the afternoon heat

I could picture your stare
How we danced everywhere 
How your love always tasted so sweet .
But a cloud met the sun
And nostalgia won
As I stood in the shade all alone

Thinking “how could it be?”
Thought it’d always be me
To tell others that you were my home

Release

It was an interesting feeling
Releasing the weight of trauma and sorrow
But also feeling more of the weight than ever before
Maybe because I was more aware it enabled me to feel more 
How interesting it is that while I find my happiness
I am also feeling exponential sadness