I still can’t believe the levels of absolute sorrow you built for me, slowly pushing me into insanity. You absolutely crushed me, destroyed every broken piece of me until you were satisfied enough to walk away. I was too soft between your rough fingers, begging you to hold me gentle, you ignored all of my pleads. I begged and groveled at your feet for forgiveness for mistakes that I now realize I was never at fault for. All I desired was acceptance but you made sure to give me nothing but denial.
Tag: pain
Take Me
A playful mind
A treasured find
A heart that’s made of gold
All these things
That I could bring
That you refused to hold
Hollow
Her lips are stained
With red in vain
You’re tainted with a thought
You find her whole
With little soul
To give what you had sought
Insincere
I’m weary of people
And apologies
I’m still stuck inside this fear
Since the day you forced me
To believe your lies
When I thought you were sincere
Insane
Silent voices
Bounce off of bare walls
I can hear the murmurs
Make their way down the hall
Can you hear them like me?
Can you feel their pain too?
If you could would you listen
The way that I do?
Control
I’m not broken
I’m not lost
I’m not searching
For half of a whole
I’m letting time
Reshape my pain
I’m not broken
But now in control
Blame
Dusk turns to dawn
It was you all along
Hiding secrets alone in the dark
Will you sanction my pain?
Or continue this game
Where you pick and you pull me apart
Who Are You?
Who are you
at the end of the day?
Open and free
with your mask stripped away
Because all I received
was judgement and shame
In the end all I know is
your name and your pain
Defense Mechanisms
You often raise your voice
As if you are raising a gun
But while some holster a weapon
With the intent to kill
I see your loaded words
As merely an emotional shield
Used frequently and deliberately
With the intent to protect your ego
With a simple touch
I found myself spinning out of control
Grasping at anything to keep myself steady
And though he knew this all along
He still found himself in a state of confusion
As he watched me inevitably disconnect
From the ground beneath me
What's Mine Is Yours 