Lovely

His eyes fell in deep shades of blue 
And I’m not sure if he knew
But just like the ocean deep
Everyone stares in the 
Reflection of the surface
But the depth and soulful worth
Is often left undiscovered

Letters To Him #3

I used to pity you, and all that you had gone through. Every action that had led to the scars on your heart, all the wrong you did not deserve. That is until I discovered the vengeance you seek in those you find unworthy. What defines worth, my dear? To you, the expectations on value and respect are never held to your own doing. So what defines worth? Innocent souls trip on mistakes in your path and you condemn them for life. What defines worth? You do realize that this pattern of defining another’s worth, to you, is a viscous cycle of revenge, right?

You will never find happiness and peace while battling a non-existent war. Look around, my dear, for you have wounded those around you who have had nothing but love for you. Hearts that have been misplaced due to your lack of empathy and self serving actions. I hope you finally get what you are looking for, however, I really hope you get what you deserve.

Contentment

I never felt at peace
And now my world is standing still 
The war used to consume 
But now no voids call me to fill 
I used to never sleep
Now nights bring dark against my will
I never feel too weary
Now that the calm seeks all my thrill

Release

It was an interesting feeling
Releasing the weight of trauma and sorrow
But also feeling more of the weight than ever before
Maybe because I was more aware it enabled me to feel more 
How interesting it is that while I find my happiness
I am also feeling exponential sadness