Letters To Him #2

I still can’t believe the levels of absolute sorrow you built for me, slowly pushing me into insanity. You absolutely crushed me, destroyed every broken piece of me until you were satisfied enough to walk away. I was too soft between your rough fingers, begging you to hold me gentle, you ignored all of my pleads. I begged and groveled at your feet for forgiveness for mistakes that I now realize I was never at fault for. All I desired was acceptance but you made sure to give me nothing but denial.

With my hands shaking 
I tried to reach out to you
And hold the parts of you
That were not quite put together
& Even with a heavy warning
I thought I was strong enough 
To bear the burdens of your love
How wrong I was to assume
You could also hold me